im alone ):

I thought we were all supposed to be best friends. WTF happened?! I feel so left out. I feel like a third or fourth or fifth wheel. Best friends are supposed to do everything together. Shopping, hangout, gossip, have sleepovers, and all that good stuff. But I'm never invited. I'm never apart of anything. Why?! What have I done wrong? It just makes me so mad and sad. It feels like im not even best friends with them any more. I'm alone in this friendship. Even if i couldn't go, an invite would be nice. Then I'd feel apart of something, and that I haven't been forgotten. They share so many secrets and jokes that i dont know about. I wasn't there to know. ugh! Right now i feel like i have no one to lean on, to vent to, to be best friends with. Sometimes i wished that i went to a different school, so that i could meet people who would include me and make me feel accepted. *sign. Ohh well. I just hope that this is just a phase, and it will change because i want my best friends back.