no more.

Why? Yesterday, or more like monday, was our meeting and we got the most shocking news ever. OHMYGOD! I never thought it was gonna happen. I thought we were gonna stay together until we had to go to college and our seperate ways. Coach john, broke the news to us about him no longer coaching us. We were a FAMILY! Everyone was close to one another and now we had to split apart. I never realized that it would happen to us. We played well together. The meeting ended with a sob fest. John didn't have enough time for both teams and need to focus on just one. And unfortunately it wasn't ours. But a couple of us will be moving up to 16s to play with his older teams. Im one of them. It's gonna be a challenge, that's for sure. So much older. But it's gonna be a good experience. I hope.

GO RENEGADES!

I regret

doing what i did. Gosh, i don't even know why i did it. It was so stupid. At the time it was so exciting and I loved the adrenaline rush but now i look back at it and it was just so stupid. From it i lost the trust of the people I care so much about and their parents. It was just a one time thing and I don't even wanna do it again. No one is perfect and I slipped up that one time and I lost people's trust. I regret it so much. But this is one of those things that i can't fix for redo. I can't go back in time and fix my mistakes. I just have to live with it and be better. It made me a better person. I've learned that my actions can cost so much. Next time im not gonna be so stupid and careless to not think about what im doing. This mistake made me think that this is not worth losing my friendships. It's so hard to describe but when I found out that their parents don't trust me anymore, it just hit me hard. IDK but it really hurt inside. I don't want to be labeled as the bad girl or the one they can't trust around their kids. That's not me. You know me better. I know that i am better. Im so sorry that i even did it. It's so hard to describe what it made me feel knowing that im not trusted because of some stupid thing I did. I just want to earn back the trust.

rhee rhee

means "retard". ahaha. Which she thinks is better than boobies "chi chi". But hello, boobs are a lot better than retards. That's why people are so crazy over them. ahaha. That crazy chick. Hung out with her yesterday and today. She came over and she folded my clothes for me. And i love her for it. Then we walked to PHHS and then dairy bell. OHMYFUCKENGOD! it was so hot. I was burning up like a 'cookie in an oven' [max]. I ordered a vanilla milkshake. damn it tasted good. So refreshing. We just hung out and chilled with robell and kenny. I was sweating in my seat. So gross. Thank god for my mom, she came and picked us up. "Rhiannon, talk sex to me" ahaha. Today i went swimming with rhiannon and linh. CAMERAWHORE! as always and i tanned for like 10 mintues. The water was hella cold but it felt so good. But fuck! i can't swim or float or anything to save my life. Im so depressing. Then we went to bamboo. Stupid asian lady kept staring at me. Wtf was her problem? She'd look at me or us and when we looked at her she'd turn away. beezy! I got a durian milkshak. it was yummy in my tummy. "She keeps looking at us" geez what's wrong with her? So rhiannon's dad told me to stick my face in the window and just star at her. FUCK it! that's what i did. Walked to the window, stared her in the face. All she could do was wave. WTF? how rude. ahaha. then we went home. Me and linh made this microwaveable pasta thing. It was so liquidy and gross. But the bread we had was so GOOD! What a fun day.

*RL

Im over this whole deal. I don't even know what went wrong or what happened. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. At first I thought this was the summer to remember and it was supposed to be the best. But now it's just a disappointment. Am i mad at you? Or are you mad at me? I don't even know. Im so confused about the whole situation. Every night im waiting for your call thinking you might decide to call me but naah my phone stays silent. It was fun while it lasted. But the more i wait and wonder if anything would happen, the more disappointed and pissed i get. I think im better off just forgetting you and putting you in the past. I'll just wait for high school. Im so ready. I just wish i knew what went wrong.

CGA!

I couldn't fucken find my wallet! I my mom was like yelling at me and she didn't even make any sense. So she took me, aly, jen, and linh back to linh's house where i lifted up her dog beds and there it was. ahaha geez. That was fast! CGA was so sad. There were like no one and it was like camp day or something cause there were a million camps there and there were tons of little kids running around. We went on Top Gun lke 3 times. The front is officially my favorite sit. We practically went on every single ride. We saw Gabby there with all of her white friends. ahaha jk. I was so depressed cause there were no cute guys. How sad is that? I only saw one, the buff guy, and no one else. We went on the marry go round like 5 times and took pictures. ahaha. We're such dorks. But it was a hella fun day. Lets go again next week!

sleepover with linh

So on monday i went over to linh's house at like 8:30 pm. We played MARIO KART! omg im getting a lot better. i don't get last place anymore and i actually beat linh, twice. whoo! I told her like everything that's happening in my life since i haven't hung out with her in like 2 weeks. but then we watched tv and phoned with jessica and kelsey to plan our 5th period hangout/sleepover. Geez. everyone like has hella different schedules it was fucken hard. We entertain and laugh at the most ridiculous things. We like danced to tv music and i tripped over a box of cup noodles. hehe. good times. Then we made avocado masks to soften our skin. We split the avocado in half and smashed it. Then we needed honey. The fucken honey wouldn't go down. WTH? So ran it under hot water that took a life time to get hot and it was slowly going down but we were impatient. "Lets just put it in the microwave." Omg that was such a bad idea, i feel stupid. Shit the bottle was burning hot and it like round like an egg. haha. When we went to pour the honey in, it came out like a runny mess. It went all over the counter-top and the floor. Shit! it fucken burnt my pinky and like linh's hand. poor girl. :( I had to wipe the honey off the counter-top cause we didn't have enough. Then we mixed it together and took pictures. TONS OF PICTURES! CAMERAWHORE! My skin felt hecka good but i got like an allergic reaction to it cause red bumps started appearing on my skin. Then it started to itch. OMG! We feel asleep reading Seventeen. We got outta bed at like 12-ish. Linh had steak and i had 6 pizza rolls and 2 mozoralla sticks. Don is a fucken STICK! He has like 0% fat. He had the same size steak as linh and he ate only like half of it and he was struggling to finish. He like gave the last pieces to linh and the dogs.