I regret

doing what i did. Gosh, i don't even know why i did it. It was so stupid. At the time it was so exciting and I loved the adrenaline rush but now i look back at it and it was just so stupid. From it i lost the trust of the people I care so much about and their parents. It was just a one time thing and I don't even wanna do it again. No one is perfect and I slipped up that one time and I lost people's trust. I regret it so much. But this is one of those things that i can't fix for redo. I can't go back in time and fix my mistakes. I just have to live with it and be better. It made me a better person. I've learned that my actions can cost so much. Next time im not gonna be so stupid and careless to not think about what im doing. This mistake made me think that this is not worth losing my friendships. It's so hard to describe but when I found out that their parents don't trust me anymore, it just hit me hard. IDK but it really hurt inside. I don't want to be labeled as the bad girl or the one they can't trust around their kids. That's not me. You know me better. I know that i am better. Im so sorry that i even did it. It's so hard to describe what it made me feel knowing that im not trusted because of some stupid thing I did. I just want to earn back the trust.